~♥ Just a Life ♥~

2012年12月16日星期日

Confucius say choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.
This few day, I feel that I am really inability. Everything I can't do well. I cry till my eyes red and swollen. Can you please awake? That's not use okay! Is a long time this kind of stupid thing wont happen in my dictionary. What is the life in university? Why I wan come here study? Sometimes, I do not understand. I feel that I do not have a direction have a goal have a future. Everyday I go to class for what? Lecturer teaches in front, what I am doing at behind? Is that my uni life? Everyone wish to walk in this door. But what is the life actually? Where is my dream? Where is my ideal? Am I make a wrong decision? I am a idiot a fool. Yes, you are stupid. What am I write in this few day? It's still nothing on the paper. I feel that I am useless. I had already forget the previously learned. I really feel I wan to give up. I am glad that I still can survive till now. One and the half year I be here, should I just give up like this? You already walked half, another half journey you will be graduate. It just a small failure, should I simply give up? Because of some reason, people leave school early. But you? What do you want? Remember that your parent want you to get a good education. Remember that you have so many people loving you. You should be a good role model. Everyone is looking at you. I sleep not well for the whole semester. The yelling of the next door, the noisy the screaming in the midnight, awakened by the alarm clock, the slamming door. Bla bla bla~~ It totally made me cant sleep. Yes, I hate. I know I am not at home anymore, I should learn to face with this life. I know living together I have to learn to be courteous. But I still cant to do it. Yes, I am selfish. If I can be beating people, that's quite good. I also will feel uncomfortable. I dislike this condition. I also wan to scream but i choose to be quiet. I know is not suitable for me to do such thing. When you are sleeping, you also cant tolerate the noise of other. I dislike to share with other people. You need learned to be patient. If you clam your mind, naturally you will feel static. You should learn to be strong, learn to be independent. I am not a gentle person.